we have all become the person we swore we would be

You know my name, not my story. You've heard what I've done, but not what I've been through.

to give it my all, or to give up?

as much as i act like i dont care, like it doesnt effect me, like you dont effect me. I CARE. these mind games are exciting, but we have to be careful, in the end we could end up hurting each other, and then what will we do?

im finally realising im going to be fine without you, im going to get through this 100% and come out a stronger, better person. the empty feeling has gotten smaller and smaller as the days, months have passed. soon; i am hoping it will be gone completly. im learning to love and appreciate life again. i am finding the person inside me that i lost so long ago because of you. each and every breathe that i take i feel more and more free. yes, the pain is still there. yes, there are moments when i breakdown at the most inconvient timesbecause of a memory of you, of us. but i’m learning to control them. i’m learning to push it away. i still feel that familar sharp pain when your name is meantioned, or something reminds me of you, but ive become so acustomed to it now, it has barely any effect on me. i will be okay, i will be strong. every time i look into the mirror and see myself, my true self without being all done up, it reminds me what you have done to me. i would not look like this if it wasnt for you, i would be a normal 16 year old girl. but now i have to deal with the consiquences of being in love with someone like you. i miss you everyday still, but i dont miss who you are, i miss the way you made me feel, the happiness i felt when i was with you. the way i saw the world when i was in your arms. the carefree feeling, but most of all i miss the feeling of being someones world, of being loved the way you loved me. we werent perfect, but we were us. everyone tried to stop our love and that only made us love one another more. no one could ever get inbetween us. this feeling, of love, is the strongest feeling i have ever felt. you opened my eyes and my heart to so many different things and for that i am forever grateful. i dont regret falling inlove with you. but i know it was a horrible horrible mistake.

my first mistake was loving you, my worst mistake was giving you a second chance. cause you tore me up and you called it love, you made a fool out of me. my last mistake was thinking i wont make the same mistake again.

you’re so confusing, make your fucking mind up what you want. you say no one understands you but your willing to let me try then you just shut me out like this. if you plan for me to be able to get into your head, then fucking stop acting like a child when i say something you can’t handle. this is silly, were not 12 anymore.